Over the last few years I realised my commitment and enjoyment to badminton has decreased. There are a lot of things going on in my life, school, work, relationships, ect. but I think I still have the time but I just don't seem to want to make any commitment to go out and find a place to play unless someone asks me to. I don't know whether my badminton level has increased or decreased. When I play I no longer find the motivation to try as hard as I used to and probably from not trying much most of the time, the times that I do try to try harder it doesnt seem to work. I don't know if any of this is making any sense, but when I was younger and a not so good player I would have more fun playing knowing and expecting to lose but would try everything I could, smash, run, smash, ect. But now I have more selections in my shots, I tend to be more lazy and choose shots that don't requirement as much strength and many times leading to me not really enjoying the game as much. Many of the people who I used to talk to in this forum are also gone or moved on to other things in life. I believe I m slowly losing interest in badminton but in my heart I don't really want it to be this way. I think I will go back to the places where I started playing badminton to play again and hopefully rediscover the thrill I once had. Maybe I need to come back here or go back to believing I was still young and I can still learn..from anyone.