Hi all, I'm a new member of the forum. I'm a female from Australia who's just restarted playing badminton socially 4-6 times a week. I used to train at a club in my early teens and have just resume playing in my early 20's. I also try to do one training session a week but it's more footwork related rather than actual technique for shots (as in it's assumed knowledge you know how to clear/drop shot/smash etc -- most of which I can do just not super consistently). Anyway when I play social badminton, I'm generally the worst player there. I always get thrown into mixed doubles matches with really advance players and I personally don't mind, but I can't help but feel guilty for them? I feel like I'm an inconvenience to play with, and I can feel everyone on the court dumbing down their skills to hit to me. Because I make enough mistakes as it is, I also find myself resorting to holding the racquet incorrectly as I'm still getting used to holding it the correct way, just so I don't make any more mistakes. Now I personally don't mind losing social matches but I feel like my doubles partners always regret having played a game with a beginner on court. I've even heard people remark "Okay let's play a real game now" when they sub me off for someone more experienced. Anyway I'm really not sure what to do! I want to play and it's just social badminton, they're just fun scratch matches. I find myself saying "sorry" 100 times throughout the game. I just want to hold the racquet properly and try implement different techniques I've been coached like turning side ways to hit my clears etc. but at the same time I feel like I have to do absolutely anything I can to ensure I don't make more mistakes as it is. Is there anything I should say to the doubles partner before playing? How do you feel when you get paired with a beginner badminton player?